WALLFLOWER

               When i first watched Breakfast at Tiffany’s i was so mesmerized by the beauty n classiness (if there’s such word) of it. and form then… i was in love.. haha… sad? ya! but who cares…. dare to dream….i ve alwasy dreamt of being proposed nside Tiffany & Co. by the man of my life… hehe..like Sweet Home Alabama… man! i was definitely in love.

Frankily speaking.. i tot it was impossible for me to have it…. but it didnt stop me there… ikept dreaming n dreaming that one day someone special will buy me something from there… *wink* *Wink* diamond ring would be nice! haha…. so u see.. that’s why i’m still dreaming of having one…

But Today… a miracle just happened…God has decided to gimme a chance and taste my own dream that i ve been longing for soo long. My brother has present me my first Tiffany & Co…. !!!!!! *Applause* yeah!!!!! heheh.. n the best part of it all.. its the one that ive been wanting… the Open Heart necklace….! wooohooooo!!!! sometimes… life s not that bad as it seems… God works in mysterious ways!

i love my brother *boy! that sounds different* hahhahahaha

i love u my family!

note: i’m so happy - 24Mac05 - 9.00pm

LOVe…. that’s all that i ve been talking about in my BLOGGGGG. LOve.. is very subjective. FUny how it brings u up, feel like u’re on top of the world and gives you fuzzy wuzzy feeling inside. LOVe… is a many many splendid thing.

People fall in and out of love before they meet the right one. The ‘ONe’.. How can we be sure that the “ONe’ is the RiGHT ONe? The thing is about LOVe… it works mysteriously and within those weird circumstances the least expected ones are always the REaL ONes… dont’ u think? i mean the person u’re talking to right now could be the ONe… the boy you keep ignoring because he gets on your nerve could be the ONe… the girl who you say Hi every morning when u get to office could be the ONe….the makcik selling nasi lemak too could be the ONe…

THe point is…. how will we know!… would we end up with ‘Not SO the One”? For me…. i believe in destiny n how we will eventually meet the right one when the time is right… we cannot push LOVe to come to us… neither can we take it for granted n let it come on its own.It needs our drive to pursue the LOVe and nurture it….

The beginning part of LOVe… everything is in the air…but as time goes by …we tend to get ourselves into the “COmfort” zone where we’re at ease with our partner and there’s no more effort in winning the heart of ur love one… coz u’ve already got them~!

so..tell me…after the LOVe has gone..? What is left? Would u go astray or wud u reminsce the good times u had and appreciate ur LOVe one on a different level or would u start looking for something “New n Exciting”?

Tell me… after 13 years down the lane… how do u keep “us” alive? when uve seen the beauty n the ugliness of ur partner… would wish u could turn back time n start all over again?

I wanna know.. what do u think? Is love enough to keep “us” strong forever?

No more fear facing with lies

for i’m right

n shud not be afraid

no more fear

Stronger

now i’m stronger

stronger than what i used to be

‘Moral fiber’

brings me the strength n support that i need

giving me the hope n love that i need

learn to live again

Fearless

for lies wont bother me anymore

They will see

they will hear

truth will prevail

for i shall not feed them

they will know

Content

looking forward for the future

having the ’moral fiber’ that i need

i will overcome anything that comes in between

Moving on…

to a more happier days

moving on……….

From the naked eyes,

they judge me without even knowing me,

From their naked eyes,

they see,

me hurting people around me

they see

i keep jumping from one thing to another

causing so much hurt n pain along the way

but do they know?

what really happened?

or was i happy with the situation i was in?

did they ask about me?

did they care?

they didn’t even bother

but only judging

blinded, with what they want to see

deaf, listening to what they want to hear

ignorance

not a bliss

judging

that’s all they do

i’m here sitting while listening n watching

lies after lies 

cant take it

i dig deeper n deeper into a hole

trying to escape

from all of this horrible lies

it hits me..

like an arrow to the heart

but i will not perish

for the truth remains only to the one who seeks

keeping silent

for fighting to come to the light will not be useful

sitting silently

waiting for it to stop

helpless

weak.. weaker by the minute

but i gotto hold my head up high

got to reach for the light

for i am not afraid

and i will not hide

my true self

i crawl back up to the sun

and i stood up tall

for not i shud be blame 

silly things

letting it go

moving on…

to a brighter, promising day.