WALLFLOWER

When you’re feeling down n low and nothing seems to make you smile

what u need is…… ‘moral fiber’

may it be your passion for football, or an idol or even your mother….

let it be a drive for u to move forward..

a form of inspiration for u to reach greater heights and aspiration to achieve your dreams

For me, my idol is definitely my mother n Yasmin Ahmad…..

there’s so much energy and drive coming from them that makes you wanna go on and

never give up….

Sigh!!! hihihi… i realize that u only have one chance in life and its your choice to the live the fullest! enough of feeling introvert and unconfident… its time to move forward n have fun

It was like a fairytale, every girl’s dream wedding…it was intricately planned… even every little details were placed nicely and the evening went beautifully….

The bride was gorgeous…. a picturesque princess walking gracefully down the aisle with a handbouquet in her hand… she was greeted by hundreds of smiles and admiration over her beauty and graciousness…..

The groom as dashing as can be… waiting for her patiently as she walks to his side. Both looking so good together.. it was definitely a matchmade in Heaven…. serenaded by a sentimental number… we were all captivated by the couple and the whole atmosphere that night… a truly magical night it was…. for me that is… coz.. for once, this is the only wedding that ive been to.. that i actually see the bride and groom are soooo madly n deeply in love with each other…

The whole night was truly a night to remember with delicious food, great crowd, and most of all tasteful decorations and great excellent music, it didnt only satisfy the heavenly Couple but also the guests…everyone went home with a smile on their faces marks a very fulfilling evening.  

To make the night even more special… the groom, her knight and shining armor had made her a personalized video of the bride and him… it was really nice… very sweet and funny at the same time… and to highlight the evening,… the groom decided to giver her lovely bride a surprise… he sang… to her….it was soooooo touching… . i almost burst into tears watching them… (yeah yeah! i am emotional yada yada yada) … it was soooo overwhelming…

all in all… it was the most beautiful wedding ive ever been to… it was better than any of those celebrities and who’s who wedding we’ve seen on tv…. nuthing compared to this one.. it was purely love… that’s what differ them from others…

So, to Soosan & Ghaz… congratulations and hope the both of u will prosper and love each other for the rest of your lives together…..hope u’ll overocme all the obstacles that comes in between and make lotsa babies!

Love,  esqa

p.s. atip… i love u…. kerusi plastik pun ok.. the most important thing is to spend my life with u… and that ’s all that matters…

everything is almost done… the end is really near.. two more weeks… n insya allah!! i’ll be done with my studies! everything is good… however..been not getting enough sleep is really getting to me…

feeling a lil blue…

sigh! i keep having this ‘thoughtsss’ about myself… how …. i put myself really low….

i dun see the good things in me.. n i always feel that i dun deserve anything …. at times… i feel to the extend… that even i dun deserve love from my happiness….

when i look at someone… n to see that her life is good or whatever la… i would feel that…he shud go to someone else… i always feel that he deserve someone better…

why am i this dysfunctional? i cant see anythig special about me… i dun see…. anything that is great about me… i dun see anything…

he always say that i should be thankful with what i have.. n i do… but i do believe that… i shud be the last person anyone would wanna.. know!

i keep feeling…. low!

smiles + laughters + joy = everlasting beautiful friendship…

Dear Friends,

Yesterday was one of the best days of my life! Reaching at a “young” age of 24 .. my atip had organized a surprise birthday party for me! it was schuuwwweeeettt… i had wickedly fun time… all my friends were there (well..almost all o them) … and they were all there for me… that’s all i could ask for..

my good girlfriend, erliena whom discreetly planned this out with my boyfriend… had another thing going on… when i sorta sniffed the something fishy going on… but i’m all up for surprises…

after enjoying a very nice dinner at our Utmost Fav Place to Eat.. Chee MEng… with our usuals… nasi ayam roasted… dada…2 …. kerabu mangga…. soup lebih and kacang… n 2 ice chinese tea..  but for me bday..we ordered extra… a plate of deep fried prawns.. it was yummy …. he took me to my surprise party… hahhaa…

it was so funny…. coz when i got in…. the place was dark… but then a room was lit and the sliding door was a jar.. n there!!!! DICKIE..! standing as if i cudnt see him at a corner of the room…. YAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!  i laughed n suddenly the door opened… n everyone came out… :)))

i was thrilled!!! they took pics…. they bought a cake for me… courtesy of Meliena… the good ol. chocolate banana cake… schuweeettttttttttttttttttttt!!!!

after that…everyone chilled n ate food… kfcssss n pizzas… n snacks… boy!! i was really having fun…..

(pics wil be uploaded soon… waiting for erliena’s gempaq digi cam to upload my pics)

so here i am.. wanting to Thank graciously for coming to my brithday…. it was PERFECT way to celebrate ur ‘young’ age… with youthful friends :))))….

So, kawan-kawan ku yang tercinta… THANK U FOR MAKING IT REAL…. love u heapssss

: erliena n jay, meliena  n melinda, intan, daim n ammar (handsome!), nadya (love the pressie) and gorgeous girls, anis, kak lin, n AB, hazlin -dramamama n shaif, dickie, arip, hamdi, shen, darren (TQ SO MUCH) n alin n all e consultant sistas n brother…. :))))))))))))))

u made a really ol girl feel very young … :’( freak!!! i’m 24~!!! arghhhh almost quarter a decade!!

BUT most o all… the One whom i should be really THANKFUL is my Darling Atip… for creating this magical birthday and for treating me like Princess (its a about time!!!) (heheh..kiss kiss) …. thank u sayang… u gave me sooo much more than anything i could ask for… to celebrate my birthday with my LOVED ones.. u and my friends… n chee meng (gud food)

ps.. i’m getting sick of CHee MEng (sorry b..)*ugh*… too much chicken rice can kill u!

hehhe

Thanks again ya…

Love,

Esqanita

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