Mayday!! Purple Moth is Indenial
…… booo….
indenial…am i? maybe so.. *bla…bla…bla*
Friday, July 7, 2006
Bla.. Bla… Bla
Just go Bla… Bla … Bla.. when things starts to get shitty!
Dun beat yourself up! Live & Learn! Dun punish ourselves over not meeting other ppl’s expectation on us?
Esqa you’ve put on weight… i’ll say Bla..Bla..Bla..
Esqa you’re too slow… i’ll say Bla..Bla..Bla..
Esqa get your butt up and start doing something… i’ll say Bla..Bla..Bla..
Esqa this…Esqa that.. i’ll say Bla..Bla..Bla…
That way.. i won’t get tooo stressed up over these Neanderthals…
Let me live the life i’d like to lead.. doesnt mean i’m slow i can ACE it…
doesnt mean i’m fat… nobody loves me! *RIGHT?**hmmm*hehe
basically my point is.. i’m trying to beat all these bad vibes from getting to me…
No matter what.. i’m still learning n i will improve.. in the end.. i’ll be thinner, more efficient n be someone someday! 
So if someone is giving you bad vibes.. you just say… BLA..BLA..BLA…
I’m bored *bla..bla..bla*
Thursday, June 1, 2006
Could it be that HARD?
hmmm.. a thought came to mind…
“Could something so easy be so hard?”
or am i just pushing for something that is uncertain?
…. i don’t know
Wednesday, May 31, 2006
Quarter Life Crisis
Let’s begin…. When i told my friends that i’m going thru a ‘quarter-life-crisis’ most of them just disregards it. the first thing that came out from them were “What? Quarter life crisis? No such thing” “That’s absurd!!!” “Hahahahaha… quarter life…. Hahahahaha” “You got to be kidding me” “You’re too young to have any crisis!!”
well… guess what…I AM FACING A “QUARTER LIFE CRISIS”!!!!… in my own personal terms.. how do i defined this term of mine that i’ve coined??… well… ITS WHATEVER I WANNA THINK IT IS N IT DOESNT MATTER IF U DUN GET IT COZ U’LL NEVER GET IT!!! hehehe.. see! unexplainable.. but basically.. at this point of time.. i am going thru a dilemma.. where i’m beginning to see, observe and realize a lot abt things that i shuda wuda cuda done kinda thing. Regrets? no.. coz i believe at that point of time i was sure with my decision as my decisions are really based from what i want not other ppl’s wants. i am content with my life however i still feel that i need more more more.. why? coz i have realised that i have missed out on some great opportunities that wude ve been sweet. u know ..u’ll get to a point when u’ll ask urself “Who am I?” (*i know it sounds soo corny..but hey! i’m lame*) ..well..i’m beginning to have that “Who am i?” right now.. i want to learn more about me… i feel that i still havent lived the life that i want to lead… oh mi gosh! ive got so much to say bt i dunno which to start first.. sigh! so confused.. hehe… i guess the bottomline is.. i’d like to live the life i’d like to lead and be content with any decisions and turns that i make in life.. i wanna fill content n fulfilled..
in the end of the day… i’m not getting younger.. ive got live today only once in my lifetime.. tomorrow will be a new day and i wanna look back at yesterday and feel content with what ive done or mark or achieved
Thursday, December 22, 2005
i dont wanna grow up
… i’m a toys’r us kids … we ve got soo much n la la la la la la la la ….
man! life doesnt get any easier as u grow older ya… responsibilities.. uwaaaa~~~!!!!!
in decision making u are bound to hurt some party in the picture… but most of all.. when u do it… make sure u are doing it for urself.. n not for someone else… so there’ll be no regrets….
i’m sooooo…doomed
Sunday, July 10, 2005
enough????????
When will it ever be enough? i keep trying and trying but it seems to be never enough…! i keep saying the wrong thing, doing the wrong things and being not enough….
anxious. despair. anguish. frustration. disappointment. all coiled up in me. i keep doing the wrong thing according to u… just like a stone… no feelings u presume i am… n with that… caring is what u think i dun have. showering the best i can to carve a smile… but keep frowning when nothing is enough.
what am i to do? i m soo confused.
Shitty feeling
i’m just soo damn bored…so i just feel like dropping something into the blog just for thought! today.. i feel so shitty… had my tuition this morning… an advance class so i dun have to go next week… ive just started working and so far…alhamdulillah… things are going ok….
today, i feel shitty! sooo shitty! i’m just not in the mood…. i have things on my mind….but i dunno how to let it out.. i’m tired… and i’m just in a shitty feeling…
sometimes i wish i can just be young again n have fun…maybe … the ‘change’ is getting to me… life is good dun get me wrong… its just that i have some thoughts that ive been keeping inside for quite some time… n now…its kinda bothering me….
i feel restless and somewhat empty…. i feel unsatisfied! yup..that’s how i am now.. just simply unsatisfied… not content enough!
i keep asking myself what …. but i cant seem to find the root of these feelings…. i guess its better left this way….. all to myself…..
ppl say when u talk too much u reveal too much…. n from what ive learned…. its better not to say anything rather than saying it n nobody listens…….
Thursday, June 30, 2005
Worries
This is just something I would like to share with you here..I received this from a friend (yes amina …its from u ..hehehe) …. tell me what u think of it… it seems to make a lot of sense to me ….
Why are you unnecessarily worrying?
Whom do you fear?
Soul is neither born nor does it dies.
What has happened has happened for the best.
What is happening is happening for the best.
What will happen will happen for the best.
Do not brood over the past.
Do not worry about the future.
THE PRESENT IS ON.
What have you lost, that you are weeping?
What have you brought, that you have lost?
What have you made, that has been destroyed?
You brought nothing.
What you have, you got from here.
What you took, you took from here.
What you gave, you gave unto this universe.
You have come empty handed and shall go
empty handed. What is yours today was
somebody else’s in the past and will be
somebody else’s in the future.
You think it is yours and are deeply
engrossed in it.
“CHANGES” ARE THE LAW OF LIFE.
Friday, May 20, 2005
this is what happens when u’re at home on Friday night and have nothing to do
what is it with me?!!!
everything is almost done… the end is really near.. two more weeks… n insya allah!! i’ll be done with my studies! everything is good… however..been not getting enough sleep is really getting to me…
feeling a lil blue…
sigh! i keep having this ‘thoughtsss’ about myself… how …. i put myself really low….
i dun see the good things in me.. n i always feel that i dun deserve anything …. at times… i feel to the extend… that even i dun deserve love from my happiness….
when i look at someone… n to see that her life is good or whatever la… i would feel that…he shud go to someone else… i always feel that he deserve someone better…
why am i this dysfunctional? i cant see anythig special about me… i dun see…. anything that is great about me… i dun see anything…
he always say that i should be thankful with what i have.. n i do… but i do believe that… i shud be the last person anyone would wanna.. know!
i keep feeling…. low!
